Self Esteem (Value)
What is it?
From Facing Codependence by Pia Mellody, Andrea Miller, & J. Keith Miller
- Healthy self-esteem is the internal experience of one's own preciousness and value as a person
- Comes from inside
- Moves outward into relationships
- Doesn't change based on behavior or surroundings
What is the issue?
From Facing Codependence by Pia Mellody, Andrea Miller, & J. Keith Miller
- Codependents have difficulty with self-esteem at one or both extremes
- Low self-esteem
- I think I am worth less than others
- I dont measure up
- Arrogant
- I think I am superior to others
- I have learned to find faults in others, making them inferior to me
- Both of these types of self-esteem result in what is called "Other-Esteem"
- I get my value (sense of worth) from external things
- It is based on my "human doing" or in the opinions and behavior of other people
- Some examples
- How I look
- How much money I make
- What I know
- What kind of car I drive
- What kind of job I have
- How well my children behave
- How attractive or powerful my spouse is
- How well I perform
What does it look like?
From Facing Codependence by Pia Mellody, Andrea Miller, & J. Keith Miller
- Healthy Self-Esteem
- Self-Esteem, Reality (Value)
- I am enough
- I Matter
- I am perfectly imperfect
- Boundaries, Reality, Moderation (Power)
- I have enough control
- I can influence my environment
- I am in control of myself
- Self-Care (Abundance)
- I have enough
- I can survive
- I have joy in my life
- Unhealthy Self-Esteem
- Self-Esteem, Reality (Worthless)
- Prestige
- Other-esteem
- I am never enough
- Boundaries, Reality, Moderation (Helpless)
- Power over others
- Negative control
- I never have enough control
- Self-Care (Hopeless)
- Money and possessions
- Hoarding
- I never have enough
Understanding the Drama Triangle
- The Drama Triangle (The 3 faces of victim)
- Generates shame
- through internal interaction or external communication keeps the shame messages going
- Victim
- A twisted version of the desire to be innocent and vulnerable
- Comes from an unconscious need to feel important
- Becoming helpless
- Deny their problem-solving abilities and potential for self-generated value
- Making themselves helpless becomes the primary way of avoiding failure
- Comes across as less than
- The Persecutor stage looks like resentment
- The Rescuer stage is done from a less than position
- Rescuer
- A twisted version of the desire to nurture and protect
- Comes from an unconscious need to feel important
- Taking care of others is how the Rescuer connects or feels worth
- Deny their needs
- Often operates out of the desire to eventually be taken care of
- Making themselves indispensable becomes a primary way of avoiding abandonment
- Comes across as better than
- The Victim stage looks like depression and martyrdom
- The Persecutor stage look like withdrawing
- Persecutor
- A twisted version of the desire to protect and provide
- Uses anger to hide their feelings of worthlessness
- Comes from the unconscious need to feel important
- Blaming others is how the Persecutor feels worth
- Deny their weaknesses
- Must be right
- Making themselves right becomes the primary way of avoiding powerlessness
- Comes across as better than
- The Victim stage is used to blame other for the way they act
- The Rescue stage is also painful and done in anger
- Rescuer and Persecutor are opposite extremes of victim
- All roles eventually lead back to victim
- Many family's only communicate in this way
- We all have a starting position
- We can act out this drama triangle in our everyday relations
- We can act out this drama triangle internally within our thoughts
- We can trap ourselves with dishonest and dysfunctional internal dialogue
How do I get out of a drama triangle?
- Become Aware of the drama triangle
- Take responsibility for myself (own my reality)
- Allow myself to have my feelings
- Allow other to have their feelings
- Be willing to let go of the drama produced
- Set boundaries
Alternative to the Drama Triangle
From The Power of TED by David Emerald
The Empowerment Dynamic * Generates confidence * through internal interaction or external communication keeps the confidence messages going * Creator * A healthy version of the victim * focuses on what inspires them * outcome-focused and passion-powered * generates forward energy * Challenger * A healthy version of the persecutor * consciously builds others up * focuses on using the circumstances for growth and learning * Coach * A healthy version of the rescuer * sees the internal creator in others * above all remains supportive and encouraging
How do I fix unhealthy self-esteem?
- Start with Reality
- Learn what you are responsible for
- Thoughts
- Feelings
- Choices
- Limits
- Behavior
- Contain your Reality with Boundaries
- Where do my responsibilities end and someone else's start?
- What limits do I want to place on my thoughts
- Understand your wants and needs with Self Care
- Find out what my wants and needs are
- Find out what wants and needs I want to share with others to allow them to meet those needs
- Set goals for moderation
- Look at my Reality and value moderate responses
- Give myself permission to miss the mark of moderation but ask myself "How do I want to do it different next time?"
- Look for feelings of self-worth and value generated by the previous steps
- Validate what you have done and celebrate the little wins along with the big ones
- Trust the process that as you work on yourself, you will being to see yourself as more and more valuable